Renewed positivity and introspection
Thomas reminded me of something yesterday, something our mothers used to say to us. Bad things come in three’s. He pointed out that I’m about due now, after my hurting my knee, the death of my grandmother before Thanksgiving, and my own illness after returning from Peru. I’ve been working since I’ve been back, trying to catch up to everyone and everything financially. I’ve also been reading more books – something I’m glad to return to. I went to the library and asked if I was still in the Pioneer system (from way back when, before I moved to MIA) … I actually remembered the 15+ library card number. Getting back to myself! In due time I’ll write about Peru and the things I saw there, the experiences I’ll never forget. For now, I’m just happy to be back in America with a hot bath waiting for me. Everything getting back on track.
… You will never make a good impression on other people until you stop thinking about what sort of impression you are making. Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it. The principle runs through all life from top to bottom. Give up yourself, and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it. Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end: submit with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life. Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not given away will be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. – C.S. Lewis
